I’ve always found white lights somewhat enchanting. I turn them on and the whole of me completely relaxes. That’s why these lights, hung in my bedroom last December, never came down when the holiday season had passed.
Archives for November 10, 2011
On a few occasions, I’ve received feedback that the amount of activities I partake (evening yoga, training rides and runs) are things that they did not have the luxury of taking part in until their kids were grown — unless it was early in the morning. Having felt strongly that runs at o’dark thirty are dangerous (if done solo), and since I do not have the comfort of running with company, I have always avoided early morning workouts.
The other day it came up again. This time, though the comment was meant to be a reassurance that it was normal to struggle for time for these activities, I took it differently. Suddenly my complaint about missing workouts seemed selfish. I began wondering what kind of mom people must take me for – seeing me posting photos of my long training rides, marathons, etc.
In contrast, I know what kind of mom I could become if I don’t have an outlet for my stress. I also know that beyond the safety aspects (which are of utmost importance), I have a son who does not seem to have the ability to wake up on his own. He sleeps through his alarm clock’s deafening BEEP, and repeatedly falls back asleep when I wake him up.
It’s not like I head off to the gym every night. In fact, I don’t even have a gym membership anymore. I only want a yoga workout 1-2 times during the week and one 1-2 hour weekend run (or ride) whenever his schedule allows. The rest can be done during my lunch break.
Is this really too much? Be honest. Am I being selfish or sane?