January 112.64
February 109.76
March 53.32
April 108.35
May 103.16
June 113.98
July 30.60
August 152.65
September 153.52
October 116.70
November 105.87
December 56.64
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Total Miles: 1317.19
Archives for January 2008
Running Stats (2007)
A Year in Review (2007)
The year certainly left plenty of room for improvement. From the very beginning, to the end, the year kept me in constant effort to maintain the will to go on. There were a lot of hurdles, as you will see, but mixed in was a few special moments were our family came together to recover from a year of loss. It’s still very rocky, but we haven’t given up. We go onward, and look to 2008 for better times.
Lacing up again
I’ve noticed myself becoming out of breath in the short runs around the block. It’s been scary to think that I might not be able to run farther than 1 mile at a time without stopping. It’s been 12 days since my last real run. Nobody is counting, right? Oh yeah, I am. Besides becoming noticeably out of shape in a mere two weeks, I’ve been more irritable as well. It all goes to show that I need my runs.
So, today, I laced up my running shoes for a run without my furry friends. It was humbling, and encouraging at the same time. I also pulled out my 2008 calendar to count the weeks until the Napa Valley Marathon. There are only nine weeks until race day and I am registered. I know that I haven’t mentioned this before. This is probably because the act of registering was impulsive and without forethought. I also should add that I have only the goal of finishing in mind.
Of course, you know me better than that. I can say that I only want to finish the race, but I know that I will want more once the race day arrives. How can you strive towards Boston Qualification (BQ) over and over and then just give up? Well, regardless of what happens in my training, and on race day, do know that I have not given up. I am just planning to scale down my training to allow for my new life’s demands (my new job, bereavement support groups, the puppy, single mommy-hood, etc). I am hoping to be ready to announce my attack race by summer. Until then, I am just trying to keep some sanity going.
And so begins 2008
Recently, when I suggested to YaYa that we go to church, he hemmed and hawed. “All they do is stand up, sit down, and say things that I don’t understand,” he complained. I completely understood what he meant as that was my experience growing up with the Catholic Church. I find that I am just as lost in the church these days as I ever was. It’s a comfortable “lost” but lost nonetheless.
Sadly, we have failed to give our children a strong base from which to grow their belief in God. In our resistance to passing on the “lost” feeling, we have set our children on a path with no tools for finding their way at all. I want to begin to change that in the coming year – for my children as well as for me.
Although, Catholicism is my background, it is Christianity that I want my kids to know. We have recently been trying on a new church. YaYa seems happy with his service geared specifically to children. I, myself, have enjoyed the teachings, but I have also found the experience quite an emotional one.
This new year symbolizes a new beginning for me. It is a chance to create the new life that I have been yearning for. I have been realizing that I have been waiting for it to happen to me rather than making steps to achieve it for myself. I now know that I must stop waiting and begin an active search.