Watching the doves take off at SLO’s commencement ceremonies was symbolic of these graduates being released out into the world to spread their wings and take flight on their own terms. Who knows if my interpretation matches the intended symbolism — but I quite like it. As do I like the idea of my last little bird graduating from college.
These days, it takes a whole lot of concentration to find a nice meditative state. It’s probably because I could really use a bit more deep breathing, relaxing, letting go right now. There’s a lot of old “stuff” getting stimulated and it’s whirling around in my head trying to find a way out. It’s time — time to let go of the old and make room for the new.
So — if you wouldn’t mind — please, shush…
I’m trying to meditate. And I need all of the help I can get.
When you let yourself to release the fear, things happen. Sometimes good things. Other times, different from what we might call good. But we learn, and if we do so without judgement, the joy comes from simply having the experience.
I have recently set the wheels in motion for one of these turn-your-world-upside-down experiences. There is fear, and there is excitement. But I know that by allowing myself to see beyond the limits of my nearly perfect little world is exactly what I need to grow in the direction of my yearning.
You may ask, What NOW? What on earth is Julie up to?
Well, I’ll tell you….
Our emotions are funny. One moment, we can be fully of wild excitement, the next sadness or frustration, and then apathy and confusion. It’s like riding an emotional roller coaster. I’m waiting for that wild excitement to return. In the meantime, I pull together with YaYa’s 7th grade class and all of the parent volunteers to host a dinner-dance for the graduating class.
It’s quite an event. The gymnasium has been transformed into a glamourous hall-like environment. It has an aura of enchantment, as all graduation events tend to have. We set up the elaborate (mostly handmade) appetizers on trays fancied up with a flower arrangement for the students to mill about and offer to the guests. They return for more and more until it is time for dinner. One by one, our black and white, bow tie wearing children, gather the plates of salad and file out to serve them. Then they are sent out to collect these same plates “centipede style,” snaking up the first table and down the next, retrieving the plates, and returning to the kitchen to scrape and stack them before heading out again. Dinner, then desert.
At the point where our work is done, we sit back and watch our kids in action. We marvel at how much they’ve grown and matured. Some have been there since pre-k, while others like YaYa have only been there since 4th or 5th grade. We exchange stories of trials and triumphs with school work, and talk about our children’s desired high school(s). We even groan about how we didn’t know that we were to supply the appetizers when we signed up — even though we are all pretty happy with how it turned out. And, naturally, we marvel at the jaw dropping gowns on the ladies (parent and young adult) and joke about what we might be wearing this time next year.
This school year has been a challenging one. The academic jump between last year and this has been dumbfounding and I am so proud at how my son has pulled up his bootstraps to attack it. He may not have the grades that one would expect from such an effort, but the work ethic he’s developed is one to be proud of. I can only hope and pray that between now and his graduation party that he will find the secret to studying efficiency and better retention of information learned. Then, it will be my turn to dance around in the excitement of another milestone in my son’s life.
To all of you parents celebrating milestones of graduation to kindergarten, to high school, to college, or out into the world: Congratulations! Enjoy the moment and don’t forget to take a whole lot of pictures.
Towards the beginning of Spring, the idea that each of us yogis might use the season of Spring to plant a seed so-to-speak for something big we were creating in our lives. Further to the discussion was the suggestion that sometimes, when we have big plans, we might not be ready to reveal them to others for a time. Although I had this sneaking suspicion that my seed had been sown in my symbolic garden, I hadn’t the slightest idea what growth was in store. I just knew it was BIG. Energetically, I surmised that my mystery seed had indeed been planted and that it would be revealed to me when the time was right.
During a seemingly unrelated one on one session with Jenn, the owner and amazing teacher at my yoga studio, I asked the question: What did she see as the next step for my yoga practice? Simply put, she said for me to grow beyond the physical poses. I found the idea of becoming more spirit and less body while still inhabiting my body intriguing, interesting, and totally right on. That conversation was over a month ago. However, it wast until last Friday that I had any idea how to even start down this path.
It was during Christy’s evening class, where I set an intention to work on just that. I kept it simple: To be more aware of myself as a spirit while I practice in the physical body. I had an feeling that my setting this intention might be a really big thing – bigger than just a single class but I wanted to see what might grow from it.