When you let yourself to release the fear, things happen. Sometimes good things. Other times, different from what we might call good. But we learn, and if we do so without judgement, the joy comes from simply having the experience.
I have recently set the wheels in motion for one of these turn-your-world-upside-down experiences. There is fear, and there is excitement. But I know that by allowing myself to see beyond the limits of my nearly perfect little world is exactly what I need to grow in the direction of my yearning.
You may ask, What NOW? What on earth is Julie up to?
Well, I’ll tell you….
I’m going to Dharamsala, India for a yoga teacher training and retreat!
Having lived a life of little travel — certainly almost none outside of the states — I am in for quite an experience. Moreover, as Tom used to say, having lived a life with rose colored glasses and blinders to all that is unpleasant (poor men, beggar men, and theives), I am in for an eye opener as well. But I feel quite strongly that I need to experience and see this.
I do not know where it all will lead. I am not even sure if it will lead me to teaching yoga some day. Perhaps, it will lead me back to bedside nursing. Perhaps, not. I am trying not to make any expectations, only preparations, for this trip that will occur in September.
I suppose that it may leave me just as, if not more, invigorated as this simple (by comparison) act of kicking my feet up over my head and pulling them away from the wall. Inversions have a way of giving you a small taste of what it feels like to let go of fear and turn your world upside down.