By the time I let myself entertain the notion that the back pain I’d intermittently been experiencing was more than just an ill-fitting bicycle my mind leaped from strained muscles straight to late-stage cancer. Deep down, I knew it couldn’t possibly be the later and still I let myself entertain the what if? I even asked The Man if he would remain in contact with YaYa if I was to die. Reality kicked back in by the time I was face to face with my physician.
Her exam confirmed observations which I and my fellow yogis have noted over the past many months. My back is not quite the straight and narrow that you’d come to expect; it is crooked. The question is: Why?
Apparently, there needn’t be a good reason why some peoples spines develop curvatures. In a very nonchalant manner, my physician remarked that my “mild scoliosis” probably has present since my adolescence. Indeed, I do remember being told that I had a mild scoliosis. But I also remember being told at a follow up appointment, after religiously doing the exercises I’d been given, that my back “looked good.” Doesn’t “good” mean that the scoliosis is gone? *sigh* I guess not.
Well, none of that matters anymore. It is what it is. I just need to determine why the curvature, which has apparently been present for the majority of my life, sometimes causes pain. Certainly I am guilty, like many of you, of pushing my body to the limit — and past if it will let me. Take the Boston to Big Sur Challenge fore example. The whole idea of two marathons so close together was in sane — but I went for it anyway — just to see if I could actually do it.
I will continue to invite my body to take on exciting challenges. That is living, you know. But I also would like to learn ways to reduce the untoward stress I put on my spine on a regular basis. I know that it is unhealthy to force my spine to carry a load, be it physical OR emotional, beyond its ability. Yet I also believe that, like training for an endurance event, I can condition my body to stretch to new lengths — literally and figuratively — without pain.
you certainly can. you just have to be smart about it? ya know. and that’s not saying you’re not smart. just doing things without really thinking it through can have unintended consequences. you got this.