The weather is too lovely to stay inside all day. Yet here I am in bed still. It isn’t that I am tired; I slept pretty well actually. I am just being lazy (like a sloth). I am not ready to face another day…not yet.
Thankfully, it is Sunday – a day of rest. Church, if we were to go, would be 15 minutes from now. I think that it is safe to say that we won’t be attending. I have not lost the faith. I have simply been discouraged and overwhelmed. I hope that my prayers are still being heard and that God will steer me in the right direction.
It has been 3-4 weeks since I’ve attended church. I think that it is because the fit wasn’t quite right. I liked the people and I liked the message being delivered. The music was the hard part. I made me feel uncomfortable and lost. I longed for the familiar Catholic songs which have always soothed my soul. So the search will go on, when I can generate the energy for it.
And NOW, I think it is time to put my feet on the floor and get on with the day.
Dear God: Please watch over us and help us to heal and to find joy and purpose again in our lives.
Dear Middle Sis,
We are praying too…hard! I am with you regarding the Catholic church. We had been somewhere else, another church since our first baby was a toddler and after 7 years are back (this time happily and with an open heart and mind) for the past two years. Our first Toddler will be doing her first communion (a little late but that is OK) this May. You may just have to go back to the Catholic church if not for the fit of the boys but for you (Your spa? treatment) and they can sit (like we did, trying not to whine, giggle, fall asleep and snore) and when they grow to be adults, wander their way back to a God who will listen when they are ready to ask for his help. At least they will be exposed to another. When all else fails, there is a bible to refer to and a God to talk to. We love you!
Sometimes God just wants you to sit back, relax and gather yourself.
Take your time, sweetie…
:hugs:
Have faith! It is human nature to seek meaning and understanding as to what exactly the purpose is. I, personally, prefer to accept it without questioning (too much) and push on! I think you guys are doing great. I know you are working hard and struggling hard to cope and meet each others needs. You just continue to show such strength and good judgement.