The day was especially emotional. Although it would seem that I am doing well, I could not help but feel overwhelmed with everything that I’ve been doing. Even the successes overwhelm me.
Busy, busy, busy was my week. New therapy appointments, school meetings, scheduling therapy appointments, coordinating a few repairs, and work. It wasn’t over by the time 5 pm hit.
YaYa and I had an appointment to allow him to attend a bereavement camp in May. It was pleasant but felt long and tiring. Since it was so far away from home, I felt even more out of touch with BoBo. The effect was crippling.
I have felt unsettled all night long. I don’t know how to describe it except to say that it feels like my heart is IN my throat – like I am trying to swallow it but it is stuck.
Now that my ECG and echo have come back within the norm, I suppose I can chalk this feeling up to anxiety. It’s just so unsettling.
Although I have seen that my son is okay, I still cannot shake the feeling. I don’t know how I will survive 2008. I could have done without the extra day that leap year dishes out.