If nothing ever changed, there’d be no butterflies. — Unknown
Yearning and Learning
Obviously, my daily photo project is turning out to be a everything-but-daily-photo project. It’s more than just time constraints; it’s also lack of inspiration. To be quite honest, I’m a little overwhelmed with life. I mean, I am certainly happy to wake up to each new day and embrace the fact that my body works – for the most part. I love my boys and cherish the time I have with them.
It’s the other stuff. The tedious daily commute, cooking (when I do), trying to keep my house clean, bill paying, grocery shopping, and other duties that keep me from relaxing… and the J.O.B. Err. Maybe it’s just the latter and none other. I actually enjoy cooking, when I can come home to a clean kitchen and just have at it.
I think back to when I knew that what I did on a day-to-day basis actually touched lives and made a huge impact on the the peoples’ lives it touched. But now, not so much. Now, I yearn for more. I feel like a hamster running on a wheel hoping that my efforts might possibly generate enough energy to turn on a light some where… for someone. Anyone.
If you’ve worked in drug development, perhaps you feel the same.
I often wonder what it would take to go back to bedside nursing, or maybe explore hospice nursing. I think I might find that more enjoyable, in spite of the exhaustion that comes with that inspiration.
But then I wonder if my body and my pocketbook could handle it. And would I have time and energy left to get outdoors and see the colorful flowers and butterflies?
Of course, I am just thinking out loud — taking a leap of faith that nobody will read this and take offense to my ho-hum thoughts on my career. For truly, I AM most grateful for my life and all of my many blessings. I am also learning to accept the things which I cannot change. Yes, I am yearning but I am also learning.
Ruins
These are the ruins of “quicksilver” (mercury) mines.
In operation from 1847 to 1976, these mercury “quicksilver” mines were highly important during the California Gold Rush, since mercury was used to extract gold from ore.
Time-lapse
After 2 so-so attempts to capture a sweet time lapse sequence of my orchid blossoms emerging, I was finally getting it right. This was the 3rd blossom of my favorite orchid — the white one that has been with me for a couple of years now. I was stoked to finally have my camera setting right. There was only one problem…
Bring it
For his 24th birthday, BoBo wanted to see Kobe Bryant, his childhood hero, play at Staple Center. He really wanted to see the final game but the tickets were insanely expensive for that game. Instead, I treated him and YaYa to the game against the Jazz.
I found this photo of the game showing the view from their seats which they took with my camera that day. The game wasn’t nearly as exciting as that final game where Kobe finished off his basketball career, but not until he’d scored 60 of the 101 points. Nonetheless, I think the boys were thrilled to have had the opportunity to see him play one last time.