Each night, we have one of Tom’s close, male friends come to sit with him over night. The response has been great. It’s not that I have been sleeping a lot lately, but I have at least been lying down.
Tonight, Tom’s friend, David, is here to spend the night and allow me to sleep. YaYa and David are playing a game of Old Maid beside Tom’s bed. The fireplace is going and YaYa is able to be relaxed and near his Dad on a new level. It’s safe for him and “good.”
All the while, BoBo sleeps on the couch in the next room. It is early, but last night was a bit trying. No one in the family got to bed early last night.
And me? I may be taking a sleeping pill tonight so that I can get a “good” night’s sleep. If YaYa goes to sleep, than I will be able to sleep better too. A game of Old Maid is the perfect sleeping aid for him.
I hope you get some rest, some peace, a litle respite.
No bad guys – giving your love is exhausting but it’s right and it’s what you need. But you need a little rest, too. Sleep well.
I don’t think there is a “right” way and and a “wrong” way to get through this. There is only the way of your heart. You must do what feels right to you, that frees your love, that finds space for your children to do what they need to do.
Follow your heart – it led you to Tom, it created a family, and it will lead you down the only “right” path there is.
Sleep well.
Juls, you are dealing with this with the principles and core of who you are as a person. Live true. Live strong.
I really admire your strength and determination.
Your Love for Tom and your kids is awesome.