My name is Juls. I am a runaholic. It’s been 7 days since my last run and it has not been easy.
In the first few days, I had a mix of withdrawal symptoms coupled with complete fatigue. After a while, I began to come out of that phase and on to a new phase of recovery. I am beginning to come to terms with my addiction to running, but it is difficult.
In the morning, as I drive my son to the high school, I see the morning runners on the move. I look on with a hunger for the same. I remember the joy of the wind on my face, blowing my hair back, and making me feel like I am Superhero that is moving along with superhero powers. My breathing is fast and my legs are strong, turning over quickly and taking me far. The post run feeling of accomplishment and all that kept me going back for more is in my memory now more than ever.
I am sick. I need help to be strong and resist the urge to don my running shoes, pony-up my hair, and hit the pavement for a few quick miles. There are so many who are counting on me right now; I cannot let them down. Someone, please send help.
I know its tough, but you gotta keep it real. Find a tiny bit of time for yourself….
I am. I just took a 30 minutes cat nap in the sunshine outdoors. I am hoping for a relapse when the weekend visitors arrive.
Oh my…. when you ask for help ask for 30 minutes to go for a run. Heck – ask for an hour.
I am thinking of you several times a day and hoping things are bearable. I know that feeling of seeing someone running and just longing to be out there doing the same. I hope you get a few quick hits soon! I also hope you are feeling better from your cold.
I hope you can find some time for some short runs. It will so help you physically and mentally give you strength in your challenging time.
Juls,
I’m sorry to hear of your husband’s illness. As I read back through your blog a bit, I’ve got tears in my eyes. Thank you for sharing your struggle, and thank you for reminding me how much I love my husband and sons. I’m keeping your family close to my heart and sending prayers your way.