My relief that no fracture was seen on the x-ray was short lived. Worry set in as the pain continues, and the problem goes on unidentified. In the afternoon, I surfed the net since I couldn’t do my normal routine of running. I discovered some troubling possibilities of how bad off things could be. My imagination ran out of control and I fell into despair.
I was staring at the threat of not being able to run for some unknown period of time. What if I needed surgery? What if I was never able to run again? I crumbled. In this futile state, I wondered if I’d ever be able to run another marathon, let alone qualify for Boston. At that moment, just being able to run and finish a marathon had value.
At home, Tom reminded me of my meditation skills that I could use to push off this threat off. The vision of non-running-Julie was pushed out of my mind. I am determined that this is NOT what I am creating for my future. I refuse to give in. I am creating a positive future for myself. A positive future filled with the joy of running.
Yes! No matter what life throws at you, the cup is always half full. You’ll figure this thing out than ease back on track.