It’s only been a day but already giving up FB and Twitter is having an effect very different from what I’d thought. The wee hours of the morning, while sipping my morning coffee, reading my email, and basically trying to wake up enough to function was also the time I checked in with the rest of the world. Now, I am left in darkness and deep in thought.
My thoughts are running wild and free. Sometimes, I would rather run away from the thoughts than face them. Perhaps that is what Cycle 3 is about? Maybe now I am ready to dig deeper and face the answers to my unasked questions.
I’ve got a lot on my mind as I consider the next step in my healing. What I have in mind is BIG. It will NOT be easy. It will be painful, require a lot of strength, and may not yield any benefit at all.
But it’s been on my mind for nearly 3 years now so it must be done and, honestly….I think I am finally ready.
It’s time to get out my tools (pick, shovel, and inner strength) for the purpose of digging up the dead — so to speak. In other words, it’s time to read through my husband’s medical records for myself. Perhaps I can find a few answers to the many questions that I’ve had.
Spring is coming and the sun will shine once again. It’s time to make room for new growth.
1st things 1st — STEP 1: Order the records.
good luck. The fire will either burn you to a crisp, or turn you into something new and pure…
Go get your answers…I’m wishing strength for you, no matter what you find.