Spoiled dreams

While vacationing at a ritzy hotel, I encountered an hotel employee who would give me a hard time on ever encounter. I was infuriated. Then enters my best friend.

He’s tall with eyes like the clear blue sky and an ability to make people feel 100% good or bad (depending upon how you treat him.) I was sure he’d give the guy his ugly side after I told him about the last verbal crushing I’d recieved.

My friend helped me to pick my digity and confidence up off the floor and them went over to talk to the guy. Before I know it, they’re laughing up a storm like the best of friends. The guy is smiling instead of grumbling and my friend is walking back to me.

…and then the alarm woke me up.

I’m not surprised that the alarm sounded when it did. At that point, Tom had essentially done what he came to do: remind me that I can dust myself off and move on. Before he died, Tom would often remind me of this after days such as the one I had yesterday at work. On the few occasions where he shared his work woes with me, I did the same for him. I do miss that – among other things.

If you are wondering if the bear attacked, the answer is no. There is someone bigger, and more tumultuous than he. She stormed through the department yesterday and attacked the director of pharmacology, the director of clinical, the administrative assistant, our consultant, and myself. The sad part was the whole thing happened because of my action.

Being new and unfamiliar with the company’s process, as well as feeling distant from my previously honed skills in protocol writing, I had my colleague review my work (checking for inconsistencies, reviewing formatting, insuring clarity). Unfortunately, the partnership for this process requires me to work in somewhat of a vacuum. [I’m exaggerating]

I suppose the reason Tom treated the guy with charm instead of angst is because, much like the woman at my work, there is always more to the story than meets the eye: a reason for the less-than-welcome behaviors. Although there was a kinder, gentler way to deliver the same message, there is a better way to receive it as well.