I think that I have said that I am tired of putting up a happy front. I am fine with people just saying “hi.” It is when THE question “How are you?” is posed that I just don’t know what to say. “I’m good?” No. Not really. How can you be good when your world is so different. My routine answer of “Okay” has grown old, so I just shrug and give them the I don’t really know look.
I just don’t have the words to give the short answer to the question. I have only the long, drawn out description that most people really don’t want to know. It scares them. It scares me too.