The down and dirty of it all is that I had another DNF today. DNF stands for “did not finish.” It is not a failure; it just is what it is. I only hope that it isn’t a sign of things to come.
I’m tired of race reports where I plan to do something remarkable and amazing and come back to report a performance that is “less than” what I know I am capable of. I’m tired of admitting that I am human, but the fact is I *am* human. I’ve been failing all too often lately.
From Bizz Johnson (October 2004), Silicon Valley (October 2005), and Grandma’s (June 2006), I have had less than satisfying performances. There was always a reason for my “less than” performance, but I am getting tired of it. CIM 2006 will not be another one of those races. My DNF today, was in an effort to be certain that I don’t have yet another reason for a “less than” marathon finish. I am not proud of my DNF, I am just accepting it. CIM is my race for 2006, and I am not going to sacrifice it for a half marathon.