Humble Pie

I am weak. I didn’t run today. I didn’t do any exercise at all. I basically sat on my butt reading blogs and eating ice cream. I ate ice cream last night too. Because I have no will power when it comes to mint chip ice cream (especially if it is Breyers).

When I got on the scale at the doctor’s office today, I scowled at the nursing assistant when she happily wrote down the number. I was *fully dressed* – doesn’t she know that that number was not “accurate”?! Doesn’t she know that I have been dieting for the 2nd time in my life? The scale might as well have had neon lights saying “cheater, cheater – ice cream eater.”

And then the blood pressure. It was up. 140/86. Of course it was. The cuff she used could fit around my thigh. The doctor rechecked it after I explained that walking in from the waiting room and immediately having your BP checked was not an accurate way of taking a reading. It’s NOT.

But my blood pressure wasn’t a lot better. *sign* My doctor said that I could have “white coat hypertension.” When I reported the numbers that I have been getting at home, she advised me to have my blood pressure machine checked at the health education department – just to be sure.

My ego is now deflated. I had been *so* proud of the finally losing the “baby fat” that I gained with YaYa. I know he is 8 years old, but I had lost the other 30 pounds that I had gained. The last bit didn’t seem so important. I was proud of myself anyhow because dieting is HARD.

As for my blood pressure, I probably deserve a little humbling. You see, sometimes at night I lay in bed, relax as much as I possibly can, and take my blood pressure. Then I declare my superiority to the family – gloating my supposed “health”.

Now, all I can do is try to convince the doctor, and perhaps myself too, that I AM healthy! I am. Really. I will now be eating humble pie instead of mint chip ice cream. Actually, I won’t be eating anything until after my fasting lab work has been drawn. Hopefully, I won’t have any other alarming numbers to make me reassess my health.