Our dear friend, David, quoted Carole King on an answering machine a few weeks before he died. He sang a verse of the song “Beautiful”
You’ve got to get up every morning
With a smile in your face
And show the world all the love in your heart
The people gonna treat you better
You’re gonna find, yes you will
That you’re beautiful as you feel
I’ve been practicing the art of keeping a smile on my face. At the beginning of the day I have taken a little extra time to dress a little nicer, put a little more attention on my hair, and “smile.” It’s true; I do feel better. I am not sure that I feel “beautiful” but I’ll take it.
At the end of the day, I am smiling because I am away from the stressed out people at the office. I pick up YaYa from camp and learn all about his day. He played basketball and went to the skating rink. He tells me that he skated with the 3-wheeled skates. I sure hope they were in-line skates.
We enjoyed a Jamba Juice drink at BoBo’s football practice. Oh yes, it’s not “practice” – it’s “conditioning.” BoBo is in the receiver group and they are running, turning and then they catch the thrown football. After a few minutes of this, the coach has BoBo throw the ball to the other boys. Hum? I figure this could mean 1 of 2 things. Either the coach’s arm was sore, or he thinks BoBo might make a good quarterback (QB). I’ve got mixed feelings on this one. I like that he is good, but I don’t like the idea of my baby getting squished. I’ll get over it.
Finally, I am back at home. I cooked a good dinner tonight – so I am told. My family was too busy eating to notice that I only ate the brown rice. The truth is that I have lost my appetite sometime after lunch…and it never came back.
There are a few things that cause loss of appetite. One of the big reasons might be big corporate companies that layoff hundreds of employees and then turn around and purchase two other companies. It is nauseating…OR my loss of appetite might have been due to the Jamba Juice (but that’s nothing to write about).
After a 5 mile run today, we had a meeting with the new “suits” that are now learning their way around our office building. The displayed the new org chart where there are about 6 positions that the people in my department and the corresponding department of our sister company are all vying for. Between the 2 companies there are about 50 people all “in selection” for these 6 positions. Maybe I am missing something, but I just don’t see how I can sit around and wait to see if they “select” me. I *was* smiling when I went into the room, and I *was* smiling when I went out. I was smiling, but I was not feeling so beautiful at that moment.
And then I heard about my colleague’s husband who found out why he has been in pain for the past 6 months or so. It wasn’t good news. The news puts it all in perspective. We can all get new jobs, but at least we have our health.
So after cooking that fabulous dinner (so they said), I updated my resume and my blog. I looked into what it would take to get my RN license back in active status and picked out some CEU courses to take. It’s just more on the journey. Tomorrow, I’ll wake up and put my smile on again. Why not?