“Anonymous” struck again with the notion that I am “hot.” The comment strikes a cord with me. As I double over with stomach cramps, puffing out my stomach far more than the usual, and creating a muffin top so large that would please a Giant, I wonder about this statement. Am I Hot? The answer is “not.”
I am not being overly critical. I am being honest. I really have no desire to be hot; but the terms healthy, fit, toned, and even sexy appeal to me.
It’s true that the blog-o-sphere has only the photos that I choose to post to gauge how “hot” I might be. I am not any less vain than the rest of you; I only post the good ones (where I have successfully sucked in my tummy but am still able to smile).
The truth is that I would like to be thinner, but after the struggles with Jenny Craig, I am not willing to take on the inconvenience. It was a success, in some regards. I lost 7 pounds – from someplace other than my waist. I remember looking at my feet, even before the onset of my overuse injury, and thinking how they looked bonier than before. Weight loss in my feet wasn’t exactly what I had in mind.
Since I’ve tossed aside my Jenny plan, I have gained back 2 of those 7 pounds. In my head, I have reasoned that I will be better about toning my stomach, arms, butt, and back. So far this year, however, the efforts have been ALL in my head. I haven’t put in the energy required to bring sexy back.
The truth is that I need a “plan.” I’ve known this about myself for some time (years). I am motivated into action by my training plan. When I am in training for my running, I am also more conscious about my strength training.
As much as I know that the time has come to begin a new training plan, I am scared to step it up. I am afraid that my bony feet won’t be able to take the pounding. But I won’t know unless I try.
I think it is time to get serious about getting back into shape – MY shape (only better). If being in shape, in the select photos that I am brave enough to post, appear to be “hot” then great. A few flattering comments from “anonymous” can be motivating too.