a series of contradictions

Just when it seemed we’d reached an understanding, another email landed in my inbox. Fully expecting an “okay” or “thank you for understanding,” I opened up to find a short novel staring back at me. *sigh*

As I read the words, my head began to shake… slowly… and then violently. I wanted to shout “STOP!” But it was too late. There on the screen were the words that confirmed my initial thoughts on the matter. It wasn’t about time, distance, or even money; it was about want. Why couldn’t she just come out and say it? Instead came a series of further conflicting messages.

I began typing a response back – pointing out the contradictory statements and asking for further clarification. Then, I decided to let go and simply vent here. Sometimes you’ve just gotta hold your tongue.