I’ve decided that BFF needs a different name. The reason being, that I don’t want our relationship to be limited to the “friends” forever status. There are visions of Julia Roberts falling off the bed after her best friend informs her that he has not only met someone, but is also getting married, running through my head.
Just for illustration, say I was fishing: BFF would not be a fish that I would throw back. He is sweet, handsome, easy to talk to, smart, enjoys an active lifestyle…and the list goes on. He is what I would call a “good catch.”
As fishes go, BFF (in need of a new name) is not biting on any hooks right now. His heart is still healing and he is just looking for friendship. I have to say that he does have a different idea of friendship than I have ever experienced however. Dinner, movies, cooking for each other… Oh, and then there was a quick but friendly kiss that caught me off guard. I am sad to admit that I responded to the kiss like a dead fish. Although, the cooking has not occurred, I am pretty sure that I am not being thrown back.
It’s all just a little confusing for me. I also know that I am probably not his only “friend.” I’m smart like that. Besides, Facebook shows tells all. It’s scary like that.
In the meantime, my 17th wedding anniversary is circling around. Instead of leaving a wake behind it’s path, it is having a prodromal effect on my mood which began on Sunday (with a full week to go). It is just one example of where I am at. Lord help “the first” for each of us. They’d be in serious risk of getting hurt. Yet, does it make sense to skip the one you really like and circle back around hoping that they haven’t gotten the big hook yet? My guess is no.
Anyhow, I am looking for a new nickname for BFF. Any suggestions?
Don’t you enjoy feeling awkward again? LOL… You have the test of time on your side now Juls, and an entirely different perspective. (Plus you are A one smart!) If nothing else, you NEED someone to practice with ;-)
Hmmmmm… I’ll give the name some thought.
I don’t have a new nickname, but I am much impressed with the use of the term “prodromal effect” to describe your state of mind. I must confess that I had to look that one up, nice literary touch…
Geez, Juls, I had to look up prodromal. And I STILL was not sure I understood until I went back and read it in context. That’s a lot of work! Of course you’re worth it ;)
I love that he’s making you feel all silly, and I find Facebook to be very disturbing that way, also. Frankly, there are things I just don’t need to know.
xoxo
Mia