It had been quite a few days since my last run. Today was the first run since I received my new medicine for my blood pressure and the first since my worries over the breast lump began. It wasn’t easy to fit it into my day and the run was generally difficult.
For starters, I had YaYa with me. We hit the bike store shortly after they opened to pick up his bike. The day was already heating up. With limited time, we applied sunscreen, filled our camelbaks and were on our way. I felt fatigued right from the start.
YaYa stopped at the first par course station. He was slow to catch up with me afterwards. I slowed down so that he could get ahead of me for the hill. Sometimes I can give him a push the last few feet so that he doesn’t have to get off and walk. He charged the hill and was doing well. I kept my pace and let him take the hill on his own. He stopped short but I am sure that he could have made it. We sipped our Gatorade Endurance prior to continuing on. We had only traveled 1 mile.
Whether YaYa was ahead of me or behind me, I just could not relax. He stopped often and I could see that he was not having any more fun than I was. Just after the 3 mile mark, I gave up and told him that we were heading back to the start. It would only be 6 miles but it just wasn’t working.
I sat on the grass and watched YaYa play on the playground. One of his classmates was at the same park so he was having a great time. I felt all alone there watching them play. I reached for my cell phone and called my favorite sister-in-law.