I put my hands over my face and just took some deep breaths in and out. In and out. Outload, I quietly murmurred, “Why am I doing this?” Of course, I know that I need to move forward…as if…I were going to be losing my job. The majority of the employees at “the company” know their status. My group, however, still creeps along wondering where the next card draw will take them.
Just look at this picture of YaYa’s Candy Land game ending in a few frustrated kids. *We* are those Candy Kids lying on our backs. We are dead from the frustration of drawing the card that sends us packing for the Peppermint Forest AGAIN.
At lunchtime, Mark and I go running. Mark, as I mentioned before, is not only a friend and running partner, but also my boss. For a little over 3 miles we run along, in the heat, and we tip-toe around the question on my mind. I know that he must know if I will be retained. I also know that he cannot tell me. I wonder how many more lunchtime runs we will have together. Will we train for CIM together or only virtually? We just run.